Spiritual Awakening

God has been speaking loud enough for me to hear—or maybe I’m paying more attention. He’s been speaking truths that are both challenging and exciting. Verses about knowing God and seeking Him keep showing up, and they’ve convicted me to check my motives.

Ephesians 1:17

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ,

the glorious Father,

may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation,

so that you may know him better.

My aha moment from this verse is that our purpose isn’t just to know about God—it’s to truly know Him.

God has been showing me: our purpose is to seek Jesus, not as a means to an end, but as the end itself. It’s not about seeking Him for rewards or blessings; it’s about seeking Him because He is God.

Matthew 6:33

Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,

and all these things will be given to you as well.

The best part of this promise isn’t in “all these things” but in the gift of seeking Jesus. This relationship.

Although I’ve been in a spiritually quiet season, I feel an awakening, a hunger to know God more deeply—similar to when I had my come-to-Jesus moment. Growing up, I always believed in God. Church was a regular part of life, and prayers were said, but it wasn’t personal. Jesus felt like an idea, another "thing" on my to-do list, rather than a relationship.

That changed the summer after my freshman year of college. A coworker invited me to a retreat—one she wouldn’t even be attending. At first, I thought, No way. Why would I go to a retreat where I didn’t know anyone? But something—or rather, Someone—nudged me to go. Looking back, I know it was a God thing.

On the first night, we were invited to confess our sins to God. It was terrifying yet freeing. I was real with God, pouring out everything I had done and everything I carried. And then, for the first time, I felt the forgiveness— real forgiveness that comes from knowing that Jesus, who died on the cross for my sins, knew everything I would ever do and still forgave me. I knew that Jesus’ sacrifice completely paid the price for my sins. That night was the beginning of my relationship with Him. I started trusting Him and going to Him with my problems, wanting to live the "rules" I had been taught, not because I was trying to earn my way to heaven or be good, but because I wanted to make God happy.

That passion to know Him and make Him happy is being rekindled in me. It’s as if God is calling me back to a deeper relationship, awakening a hunger to live fully for Him again.

Ephesians 2:10

For we are God’s handiwork,

created in Christ Jesus to do good works,

which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Our purpose is tied to seeking Jesus, knowing Him, and taking steps into the good works He has planned for us. The exciting part is that those good works come from relationship, not obligation.

This week, I’m choosing to seek Jesus not for what He can give me, but simply for who He is.

If you’re in a quiet season, feeling distant from God, I encourage you to lean in. Confess, seek, and trust that He will meet you there. Whether you’re just starting to know Him or you’ve walked with Him for years, His invitation remains the same: He is waiting for you.